faith: 2 a (1) : belief and trust in and loyalty to God (2) : belief in the traditional doctrines of a religion b (1) : firm belief in something for which there is no proof (2) : complete trust
Maybe it was due to my own ambition, but I’ve always liked the parable of Jesus being tempted by the Devil. (The 4th Chapter of Matthew or Luke if you’re somehow unfamiliar). Satan comes to Jesus during his fast and tests his faith in multiple ways. Christ reaffirms his faith in God through each test, until Satan leaves him be.
During Ramadan, I was approached with an offer that could have solved a lot of problems, short term. There was the excitement of possibility, but there was also something in my gut that felt unsure. It was one of those rare times recently where I was glad I didn’t have to come home and explain to somebody why I would pass on an opportunity. I talked to personal friends, professional associates, financial consultants, legal counselors, everyone had an opinion of course. I prayed for guidance, and ultimately (maybe) walked away from a good opportunity.
Now I feel things short term are about to get worse. Again, just a gut feeling. For a little while, my faith may be all I have to lean on. I’ve often told friends that it’s important to remember the past but not dwell on it; well now I have to practice what I preach. In the meantime, I’ll meditate for the peace of mind that’s a little out of reach at the moment…